Chills

(Get ready for the most misunderstood blog entry)

I am being revisited by an old enemy. 

Obviously I've done this to myself because, don't enemies only visit unless you invite them?

Of course this is metaphorically speaking.

Last night with a good friend of mine we went out for coffee and the whole time analyzed the female mind and men. Why is it that we think (as girls) we can change the boy that we like? Maybe change him for the better or possibly even... the worst? And why is it that we complain that boys play games with our hearts, when we do the same to them? I am by no means saying that I am perfect at this whole relationship thing, but when I think about it, there's so many components and and factors to a relationship. I swear, hundreds! Even more! Diving into a relationship is well and good but possibly the scariest thing. 

I absolutely hate hurting people, but sometimes I think I hurt myself more.

TGIF (tomorrow)!

Sometimes in the end it's good to just listen to Elton John's greatest hits and eat unhealthy foods.

*WANTED*

Hello my fellow readers! I am looking for models to help me create my portfolio for a little on the side photography business. If you model or believe this sounds like you, I am interested if you are!

Looking for: male(s)/female(s)
Other Requirements/information: All pictures will be posted on my facebook/blogspot page to announce my new projects. Of course since this litttle business of mine isn't exactly "big" and "booming" I won't be able to pay you for your modeling work.

Here are some pictures of my work (of course still in progress):
































Live in the Omaha/Lincoln, NE area?
Interested in your picture taken?
We can work out a price and such, but I'd love to, please send me an email:
lindsaylnl@hotmail.com

Thanks

Beginning Before Finishing

Summer is coming to a close.
School starts in a week from Wednesday.
It makes me hope I finished everything I wanted to accomplish.

I know in some areas I've matured- whether anyone notices or not, I notice. I lost some things, and I gained some things, but God is working out my life the way he wants it, and in the pain of my losses I find that what I gain is much more satisfying.

The heart has reasons that reasons don't understand

Ironically all that has been on my mind as of lately is the heart.
The heart not only is an important organ that is responsible for bringing the body life, but it also is very gentle. Fernando Soave once said, "our heart carries the wings of our dreams and our desire to realize them." I couldn't agree more. The heart can also be bitter and contain wickedness and bad intentions. I guess the heart can kind of have a love/hate relationship with us. It can make you who you are. I don't know if I give it enough credit. The Bible says, "a happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit."

Saturday morning my grandpa had a heart attack and throughout the whole week has been in the hospital. Tomorrow (8-1-08) he will be having open heart surgery. I don't know really what else to say. I know people that don't talk to their grandparents besides holidays or would rather do anything but spend time with them. However my grandparents revolve around my family. We always monitor the decisions we make as a family because in one way or another our decisions affect them. I guess my grandpa can be considered the mediator of my family. In a way I kind of consider him another form or a closer form of my father. He is more than just a grandpa. This sounds kind of cheesy, but in total honesty he's such a peaceful, loving, caring, generous man. If something happens to my grandpa, I will respect God's decision. It's hard to trust God in situations like these. You want to hold the doctor's words high but sometimes you forget the ultimate doctor is the Lord and in the end he is the only one who can mend your broken heart. I'd like to say a thank you for my friends who have been there for me in this time, thank you doesn't feel like enough personally, but I truly appreciate it, I love you.

Long time no blog!

Hey everyone!
I'm sorry it's been ages since I haven't blogged here.
I've bee very busy...a lot has happened in my life since my last blog. Probably so much that I could barely make room here.

I went to California and got back about two weeks ago. I visited my pen pal of 2 years. That was very exciting and a great experience and I love her dearly, she is probably one of my best friends and always tries to understand and help me no matter what. I couldn't ask for better.


In the meantime I cannot describe my feelings. I feel new, but I feel old. I feel scared and kind of stuck...then again I feel ready.

I wish this entry was more elaborate but everything is too overwhelming (ie my thoughts, and recent experiences) that posting them would feel like I was moving backward rather that forward.

Here's to new beginnings!

Czechs Mix?

Guess where I will be October 22nd-November 1st? Take a look at the picture above...and if it hasn't registered yet- I will be going on a small missions trip to the Czech Republic and going to Austria as well!